I just realized.

life isn't fair. it gives two shits about no one. on the other hand, college orientation weekend was good. made a few friends, was pretty fun. got home, miserable. I know you saw it. I really can't tell if growing up is going to be rad or make me a sad wreck. hopefully in the end everything will make sense but for now gonna go with the floooow. everyone's settled into college already, me and tess are the only ones left. no one else shows any interest in seeing me. people I thought were close to me actually think that I'm lame, for the most part. I miss my friends, & I miss the past. but classes start tomorrow, hopefully that turns out well. I have a 7:30 am philosophy class, what a terrific way to start my school year & week. I'm excited though to meet new people and hopefully have fun. besides having feelings, life is pretty damn good. it's also really hot in this room. I'm probably just rambling by this point so I'm just going to stop. happy sunday.

this is stupid.

I know you all are my friends and are just trying to help, but I'm seriously overwhelmed by denying all of these rumors recently. it absolutely isn't important but I'm getting kind of sick of it. "so you think tyler hooks up with all those girls?" is the general question I've been getting. I mean I know these people are trying to watch out for me but it's almost annoying by this point. first of all- I have no say in what he does so it's irrelevant to begin with. second of all, I have nothing to prove to anyone. I know what goes down and if anything was proven to me to be true, which I doubt, I'd handle it myself. you could gladly say, "I told ya so" at that point. I guess this whole blog post is irrelevant but maybe you should get your facts and sources straight before you start gossiping to me. thanks.

for my birthday this year, I want to be appreciated. I want to be shown that I'm cared about, no matter how selfish that sounds. words are cheap, and I've been feeling not good enough for a lot of people lately. and I kind of just want people to prove to me that they mean what they say. and a sloth. is that too much to ask?

oh god this karma is lasting too long.

I've had the sickest week! I'll elaborate later, but the only thing that's needed is cuddling, too bad no one wants to :(

my palms are sweaty, and there's an unsettled feeling in my stomach.

:)