I don't wanna go to bed like this.

I hate feeling selfish ha. I always put people ahead of me and for once I just want someone to do something for me. I hate to say that but I'd rather not keep that in any longer. I guess I could be overreacting but I try not to complain, but not telling anyone, ever, doesn't do anything for me. anyone who's reading this ramble right now don't mind me, just saying.

in school right now.

take that, internet policies.

I guess I don't really have anything interesting to say..went to hoffman's on friday with sara, it was pretty fun I guess. went to ham fam and dunkin donuts last night with some cool people. and today, who knows! everyone seems to be doing school stuff, fuuuuck that. hopefully I find something to do, it's pretty nice out hahhh. I am cold. can't decide what I want to do. hmm.

welcome back, jesus.

welp, today was Easter. my aunt and uncle came over and we grubbed out on food and whatnot...and from then on I've been sitting here bored out of my mind. all this alone time makes me think too hard and over-analyze. the only thing I don't get is, why all the scumbags, girl or boy, always have people that wanna be with them! I'm so nice and no one wants to be with me haha I don't get it. but I'll quit my ranting.


got accepted to Bong U to study bongology
that is all.

back.

I came back from Europe on monday, shit was nuts. picture time.



philly airport, cosmo.



and the creeping begins.



We started in Spain, Madrid to be exact.



so pretty. Madrid was probably my favorite, chilllller.



tapas in Barcelona. (basically, a resteraunt for continuous plates of appetizers)



then out for churros and chocolate!



eerie.



this is sick, although France smells.



rainy.



two words: nutella crepe. the guy forgot to charge me.



candy and chocolate factory, also in France.



me in Pisa.



wasted in Florence.



before some guy that looked like max zahradnik spilled his drink on me.



soo pretty. if anyone ever wants to get me flowers ;)



rare disease day.



made a wish at the Trevi fountain :)



cats love roman ruins. and I love cats.



bye bye Europe :(



parting gift, shockingly...good tasting. juggalette 4 lyfe.


all in all, it was such a breath of fresh air from this depressing city. soo beautiful and I miss it already. maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to go back :) I missed home because of all the people I love, but not to excited to come back to reality. I guess things aren't as bad as they seem. I still belive. :)

please believe me, this isn't where I want to be

I'm leaving for Europe in 9 days! super stoked. I still need a camera though. :( yesterday, I went to the wawa on union boulevard to pick up a camera I wanted from some guy on craigslist, but was stupid and never got his phone number to get in touch with him. after 5 minutes or so, I finally decided to check my email on my phone (even though it'll cost a fortune) and read the email "sorry someone came and picked it up last night" FFFFUUUUU I was so mad. ended up going to both five guys and rookies that day.
also, girl scout cookies! shit is nuts. lemonades are where it's at.

I think that's about it, just trying to keep my mind occupied for now. still wondering when things are going to get better, but dealing with what I'm given now..

..HEY LOOK IT'S SNOWING