you are a hand full of roses, thorns and a cheap bouquet

true, I'm a walking disaster
they told you to stay away

seems like I'm making a deal with the devil
who's whispering softly to me

'cause I feel like a bad joke
walk the tight rope to hold on to you

was it real?
or a love scene,
from a bad dream
I don't think I can forget about it

you are a shining example of why I don't sleep at all

too many sheep on the brain
to make sense of a late night call

talking in circles and
chasing a tale of
love-drawn distant memory

'cause I feel like a bad joke
walk the tight rope to hold on to you

gotta know, was it real?
or a love scene, from a bad dream
I don't think
I can forget about it

you know,
there are some days where I really feel like this could work;
like you and I are finally gonna get it right

then there are days like today
when you make me
wanna tear my fucking hair out.

'cause I feel like a bad joke
walk the tight rope to hold on to you

gotta know,
was it real?
Or a love scene, from a bad dream
I don't think
I can forget about it

I posted this on my tumblr already but.

I always say things around my friends/when I'm hanging out

like “where are the babes” or "I'm tryna cuddle"

but I really don’t mean any of it. I’m so used to our friends saying it and/or being sleazeballs so the terms are stuck in my brain hah. truth is, I’m not even looking to do any of that. at least with just anyone.

/pointlesspost

I'm convinced I'm going insane
or maybe just digging myself into a deeper hole
welp

I am also a terrible friend :(

guys are awful people 98.9 % of the time

I've been having good days! single as of recently, and that's pretty cool. staying that way for a while. some things frustrate me to no end, but that's nothing new. I'm trying to not care, but sometimes that's really hard. I'm putting it in the back of my head for as long as possible :) in other news, my kitten is cute as fuck. he sleeps so much aw. I want to go on adventures, yeah?

"so do you want me? or do you want me dead?"

I miss your dirt