drunk boys who I have complete control of, oh lawddddd

soo sick of being picked on.

everything is confusing lately
people creating unnecessary drama and bringing me into it
the usual trying to figure out where I went wrong
school being real tough.
I should be happy, everything is going really well but why do little things get to me?
why do little things still get to me? one day it won't be a bother anymore.
I am treated like an absolute princess half the time, why am I not happy with that?
maybe I'll never understand why I was never worth the effort. maybe I eat too well.
hmph
what makes you hot like an oven? sweat like the barrel, of a shotgun pointed at ya held by the devil?

I'm already bored.

this is stupid
new jersey tonight, philly tomorrow
everyone is stupid

why do I get myself into these situations? FUCK

=weird how all of my best friends are so psyched on things and doing cool stuff and I'm at home dying. good thing I cross their minds at least once in a while, right? probably not. hi I'm steph and I'm pretty pathetic right now. I am falling apart.

FUCKIN

FUCKIN A DUDE. fuck fuck fuck. that is all.