you are a hand full of roses, thorns and a cheap bouquet

true, I'm a walking disaster
they told you to stay away

seems like I'm making a deal with the devil
who's whispering softly to me

'cause I feel like a bad joke
walk the tight rope to hold on to you

was it real?
or a love scene,
from a bad dream
I don't think I can forget about it

you are a shining example of why I don't sleep at all

too many sheep on the brain
to make sense of a late night call

talking in circles and
chasing a tale of
love-drawn distant memory

'cause I feel like a bad joke
walk the tight rope to hold on to you

gotta know, was it real?
or a love scene, from a bad dream
I don't think
I can forget about it

you know,
there are some days where I really feel like this could work;
like you and I are finally gonna get it right

then there are days like today
when you make me
wanna tear my fucking hair out.

'cause I feel like a bad joke
walk the tight rope to hold on to you

gotta know,
was it real?
Or a love scene, from a bad dream
I don't think
I can forget about it

I posted this on my tumblr already but.

I always say things around my friends/when I'm hanging out

like “where are the babes” or "I'm tryna cuddle"

but I really don’t mean any of it. I’m so used to our friends saying it and/or being sleazeballs so the terms are stuck in my brain hah. truth is, I’m not even looking to do any of that. at least with just anyone.

/pointlesspost

I'm convinced I'm going insane
or maybe just digging myself into a deeper hole
welp